Back at it

It's been awhile since I've made a serious attempt at blogging. Let's see if I can motivate myself to do this a bit more often.

For starters, depression has been hitting me quite a bit, as of late. I suppose it's a combination of things. Seasonal depression whachamadingy may be playing a part of it. Too damned cold to do much outside, as of late. Not enough sunlight, so on and so forth.

I'm still trying to get over losing dad back in October. Fucking week after my 41st birthday, of all things. Though, I'm pretty sure he'd be getting excited with the NFC Championship game this year, if he were still alive. Knowing the Vikings might actually win would have him excited. Though, he'd probably have the usual comments like "they'll find a way of blowing it" or "they were lucky to make it past the Saints".

He would've been happy knowing NDSU won their 6th FCS National Championship.

Usually this time of year, finances are tighter then normal. As you'd expect, that's going to add stress on top of my depression. If it's like any other year, I eventually make it through the financial mess so there's no point dwelling on that.

I've been dealing with depression longer then I can recall. Probably contribute to my drinking problem. That's something I'll hopefully get to on another day.

At least I have a few things to look forward to. Since the last week in October, I've been engaging in in a part-time business. Hoping to make it full-time. I've been doing selling various stuff at a local antique/repurpose store in a mall in Moorhead. Spent the prior few months accumulating stuff before finally getting space in the store.

January is off to a slow start for me, thus far. With some sort of vendor fare going on at the mall, I'm hoping that'll help to drum up some business. Maybe get a boost in sales that I could desperately use. We'll see.

Still, I hate feeling so freakin' miserable. Have I mentioned depression is one of the worst feelings ever? All I want to do is stay in bed all day. It kills me having to get out of bed. At least I haven't gotten to the point of becoming suicidal. I've somehow avoided getting to that point, which amazes me. Sometimes I question what things would look like if I were never born, but that's really the extent of it.

Now I'm having flashbacks of It's A Wonderful Life.

Onto more cheerful (or less depressing) thoughts. Did I mention the Vikings are in the NFC Championship game? :D

When money becomes available again, I need to get to the auctions. I could use more stuff for the booth space. I could use something different, something that'll attract attention of the customers. I could use something so damned awesome, they just have to have it.

I've heard that crocks are supposed to be popular at this store location. There's a Fargo location. Maybe if I do well enough, I could try getting some space at the Fargo location. Though, that's a bit of a drive. It's on 52nd Avenue South, which is a hell of a drive from where I live (Dilworth, MN). Yeah.....that could be a bit of a pain in the ass.

Though, I'm sure I could cut down on drive time by getting onto the interstate. Whatever. I'm not at that point yet. Won't be anytime soon, so I'll just get that idea out of my head.

I should get various beer related items. People seem to like stuff like the old styled beer cans from the 70's, as an example. Beer advertising, neon signs (especially older designs) and so on are always popular for mancaves.

I've been told that anything related to older television programs generally sell reasonably well. My brother has done well with stuff related to Looney Toons. We're both looking forward to getting our hands on more stuff like that.

Bro even got his hands on old 8mm film involving Woody Woodpecker, some time back. I was surprised at the condition of it. It looked like it was in pretty sweet condition for it's age. Idiot neighbor of ours found it in a bin he bought at an auction. For some idiotic reason or another, he saw no value in it. The dude was originally planning on throwing it in the trash.

Fortunately, he asked our mom if bro would want it. Glad mom was willing to take it. If the film can be sold, that's an easy $25. Nice profit margin, considering he didn't have to pay for it. Hopefully, there's a collector that'll want something like this.

I need to go through my place to find stuff that I can still sell. I believe some of my stuff is still stored at mom's place, due to my lack of room at home. Perhaps she still has a few things there that could be sold reasonably easy.

I'll bother her about that later today. Meh......I could use a bit more caffeine. Probably not a good idea this time of night, but hell with it.

Later!