In life, it becomes very easy to become miserable. Misery can come from anywhere. The job. Family. Neighbors. You name it. You'll find misery just about anywhere. Happiness, on the other hand, isn't so easy to come by. True happiness is a bit of a rare commodity.
If you doubt it, just look at all the people you put up with in any given day. At different points of the day, we have to deal with aggressive drivers. Maybe you have a real jerk of a boss. At one point or another, most of us have to deal with co-workers who manage to cause all sorts of problems for us. Failing marriages is commonplace, creating misery for everyone involved. Finances and health issues can frequently cause problems.
Problems like this, and so many more, can make a person legitimately miserable. It's any wonders why people can become angry, bitter, depressed, and so on. It's stuff like this that makes happiness so important.
Where does a person gain happiness from? For some, it's their children. Others may find happiness at church (or respective equivalent). Perhaps some of you have one or two really great friends that you can count on, no matter what.
This may seem idiotic to some of you, but I still manage to gain pleasure out of pro wrestling shows. I've heard the points about it being fake or I should've outgrown this sort of things when I was a kid. Yet, I still manage to enjoy it anyway.
Why?
Because watching a good wrestling show is no different for me then watching any number of movies and/or television shows. When I watch any of the Rambo movies, I know Stallone isn't really killing anyone. Even though I know Stallone isn't killing some evil Commie, I can really get excited when watching Rambo shoot a million rounds a minute without reloading once.
It's no different then watching anything else. Does anyone really believe Ed O'Neill is married to a lazy, red-headed woman from Wanker County? Anyone really think that he makes minimum wage selling women's shoes?
Wrestling for me is no different. I know it's all planned out and I still manage to enjoy it. If a show is done well, it can be just as entertaining as any movie or TV show.
Happiness for me also comes in the form of having some quiet time. It could be as short as 15-20 minutes. Could be 3-4 hours. Whenever I get plenty of time to myself to be alone in my thoughts, I usually manage to enjoy myself. When I'm alone, I might just sit back and enjoy some music. If a favorite TV show is on, maybe watch that. As long as I have some time to just be alone and not deal with anyone.
I've never been an outgoing person, so it drives me nuts when I have to spend a lot of time around others.
I also find that I enjoy having a meal around those that I care about, no matter how dysfunctional they may be. It doesn't even have to be a good meal, so long as I'm with loved ones. It's a pretty short list of people I care about.
Much like dad, I enjoy long drives in the country whenever I get the chance. Just east of here (Fargo-Moorhead) is Lakes Country. I enjoy the scenery out there. Doesn't matter if I go to Detroit Lakes, Fergus Falls or any other town.
Outside of stuff like this, I don't get a lot of happiness. Then again, it's usually the simple stuff in life that keeps me happy.
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Sunday, January 28, 2018
Thursday, January 18, 2018
Back at it
It's been awhile since I've made a serious attempt at blogging. Let's see if I can motivate myself to do this a bit more often.
For starters, depression has been hitting me quite a bit, as of late. I suppose it's a combination of things. Seasonal depression whachamadingy may be playing a part of it. Too damned cold to do much outside, as of late. Not enough sunlight, so on and so forth.
I'm still trying to get over losing dad back in October. Fucking week after my 41st birthday, of all things. Though, I'm pretty sure he'd be getting excited with the NFC Championship game this year, if he were still alive. Knowing the Vikings might actually win would have him excited. Though, he'd probably have the usual comments like "they'll find a way of blowing it" or "they were lucky to make it past the Saints".
He would've been happy knowing NDSU won their 6th FCS National Championship.
Usually this time of year, finances are tighter then normal. As you'd expect, that's going to add stress on top of my depression. If it's like any other year, I eventually make it through the financial mess so there's no point dwelling on that.
I've been dealing with depression longer then I can recall. Probably contribute to my drinking problem. That's something I'll hopefully get to on another day.
At least I have a few things to look forward to. Since the last week in October, I've been engaging in in a part-time business. Hoping to make it full-time. I've been doing selling various stuff at a local antique/repurpose store in a mall in Moorhead. Spent the prior few months accumulating stuff before finally getting space in the store.
January is off to a slow start for me, thus far. With some sort of vendor fare going on at the mall, I'm hoping that'll help to drum up some business. Maybe get a boost in sales that I could desperately use. We'll see.
Still, I hate feeling so freakin' miserable. Have I mentioned depression is one of the worst feelings ever? All I want to do is stay in bed all day. It kills me having to get out of bed. At least I haven't gotten to the point of becoming suicidal. I've somehow avoided getting to that point, which amazes me. Sometimes I question what things would look like if I were never born, but that's really the extent of it.
Now I'm having flashbacks of It's A Wonderful Life.
Onto more cheerful (or less depressing) thoughts. Did I mention the Vikings are in the NFC Championship game? :D
When money becomes available again, I need to get to the auctions. I could use more stuff for the booth space. I could use something different, something that'll attract attention of the customers. I could use something so damned awesome, they just have to have it.
I've heard that crocks are supposed to be popular at this store location. There's a Fargo location. Maybe if I do well enough, I could try getting some space at the Fargo location. Though, that's a bit of a drive. It's on 52nd Avenue South, which is a hell of a drive from where I live (Dilworth, MN). Yeah.....that could be a bit of a pain in the ass.
Though, I'm sure I could cut down on drive time by getting onto the interstate. Whatever. I'm not at that point yet. Won't be anytime soon, so I'll just get that idea out of my head.
I should get various beer related items. People seem to like stuff like the old styled beer cans from the 70's, as an example. Beer advertising, neon signs (especially older designs) and so on are always popular for mancaves.
I've been told that anything related to older television programs generally sell reasonably well. My brother has done well with stuff related to Looney Toons. We're both looking forward to getting our hands on more stuff like that.
Bro even got his hands on old 8mm film involving Woody Woodpecker, some time back. I was surprised at the condition of it. It looked like it was in pretty sweet condition for it's age. Idiot neighbor of ours found it in a bin he bought at an auction. For some idiotic reason or another, he saw no value in it. The dude was originally planning on throwing it in the trash.
Fortunately, he asked our mom if bro would want it. Glad mom was willing to take it. If the film can be sold, that's an easy $25. Nice profit margin, considering he didn't have to pay for it. Hopefully, there's a collector that'll want something like this.
I need to go through my place to find stuff that I can still sell. I believe some of my stuff is still stored at mom's place, due to my lack of room at home. Perhaps she still has a few things there that could be sold reasonably easy.
I'll bother her about that later today. Meh......I could use a bit more caffeine. Probably not a good idea this time of night, but hell with it.
Later!
For starters, depression has been hitting me quite a bit, as of late. I suppose it's a combination of things. Seasonal depression whachamadingy may be playing a part of it. Too damned cold to do much outside, as of late. Not enough sunlight, so on and so forth.
I'm still trying to get over losing dad back in October. Fucking week after my 41st birthday, of all things. Though, I'm pretty sure he'd be getting excited with the NFC Championship game this year, if he were still alive. Knowing the Vikings might actually win would have him excited. Though, he'd probably have the usual comments like "they'll find a way of blowing it" or "they were lucky to make it past the Saints".
He would've been happy knowing NDSU won their 6th FCS National Championship.
Usually this time of year, finances are tighter then normal. As you'd expect, that's going to add stress on top of my depression. If it's like any other year, I eventually make it through the financial mess so there's no point dwelling on that.
I've been dealing with depression longer then I can recall. Probably contribute to my drinking problem. That's something I'll hopefully get to on another day.
At least I have a few things to look forward to. Since the last week in October, I've been engaging in in a part-time business. Hoping to make it full-time. I've been doing selling various stuff at a local antique/repurpose store in a mall in Moorhead. Spent the prior few months accumulating stuff before finally getting space in the store.
January is off to a slow start for me, thus far. With some sort of vendor fare going on at the mall, I'm hoping that'll help to drum up some business. Maybe get a boost in sales that I could desperately use. We'll see.
Still, I hate feeling so freakin' miserable. Have I mentioned depression is one of the worst feelings ever? All I want to do is stay in bed all day. It kills me having to get out of bed. At least I haven't gotten to the point of becoming suicidal. I've somehow avoided getting to that point, which amazes me. Sometimes I question what things would look like if I were never born, but that's really the extent of it.
Now I'm having flashbacks of It's A Wonderful Life.
Onto more cheerful (or less depressing) thoughts. Did I mention the Vikings are in the NFC Championship game? :D
When money becomes available again, I need to get to the auctions. I could use more stuff for the booth space. I could use something different, something that'll attract attention of the customers. I could use something so damned awesome, they just have to have it.
I've heard that crocks are supposed to be popular at this store location. There's a Fargo location. Maybe if I do well enough, I could try getting some space at the Fargo location. Though, that's a bit of a drive. It's on 52nd Avenue South, which is a hell of a drive from where I live (Dilworth, MN). Yeah.....that could be a bit of a pain in the ass.
Though, I'm sure I could cut down on drive time by getting onto the interstate. Whatever. I'm not at that point yet. Won't be anytime soon, so I'll just get that idea out of my head.
I should get various beer related items. People seem to like stuff like the old styled beer cans from the 70's, as an example. Beer advertising, neon signs (especially older designs) and so on are always popular for mancaves.
I've been told that anything related to older television programs generally sell reasonably well. My brother has done well with stuff related to Looney Toons. We're both looking forward to getting our hands on more stuff like that.
Bro even got his hands on old 8mm film involving Woody Woodpecker, some time back. I was surprised at the condition of it. It looked like it was in pretty sweet condition for it's age. Idiot neighbor of ours found it in a bin he bought at an auction. For some idiotic reason or another, he saw no value in it. The dude was originally planning on throwing it in the trash.
Fortunately, he asked our mom if bro would want it. Glad mom was willing to take it. If the film can be sold, that's an easy $25. Nice profit margin, considering he didn't have to pay for it. Hopefully, there's a collector that'll want something like this.
I need to go through my place to find stuff that I can still sell. I believe some of my stuff is still stored at mom's place, due to my lack of room at home. Perhaps she still has a few things there that could be sold reasonably easy.
I'll bother her about that later today. Meh......I could use a bit more caffeine. Probably not a good idea this time of night, but hell with it.
Later!
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